REDISCOVERING MYSELF

I have not been making my entries in this Faith Sojourner blog, I guess it is clear that I am quite lost. I have started 7 other blogs yet I have not added any entries into this one. I guess I could say that I have not been Faith Sojourner. I’ve lost my vision and mission. I have tried returning to God, and so far only managed to calm myself down and dry my tears. Amidst the disappointment I am experiencing with God, I figure I can either further indulge in it or change my perspective and look back into the past in search of my vision and mission. I need to be found. Here is an excerpt taken from my journal on my 26th birthday, August 30, 2005;

BIRTHDAY REFLECTION

A quarter of a century plus one on this earth, what have I done and where I am going? How is my personal relationship with Christ? Have I fulfilled all of the missions He gave me? And am I ready for the next assignment yet?

Last year, my 25th year of being alive is about death. Dying in the flesh and resting all of my desires before His feet. Apart from that, last year was also about finding my mission and what God’s purpose in my life is. At the start of the year God had promised a restoration in my life. This year is the year of restoration He said. What I have lost during my desert days will be restored. 1 Peter 5:10, But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen and settle you.

Last year can be termed the Desert Days where ‘death’ was demanded of me and that was also the point when God gave me a vision, a ministry. The strangest thing, when I returned to Surabaya and dug through my pile of diaries, this purpose of life that God gave me fits perfectly with the prophecies I received during my university days!!! So what is this purpose of life? I received them while I was back in USA last year.

2 Corinthians 5:7 & 1 Chronicles 29:15
NAME: FAITH SOJOURNER :
WALK BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT, FOR WE ARE ALL SOJOURNERS ON EARTH

VISION AND MISSION:
EMOTION IS MY MISSION
SALVATION IS MY VISION

OCCUPATION:
AAA - ASSOCIATION OF ANGELS ON ASSIGNMENTS, the real life insurance policy
3M - MIRACLE MAKER MULTINATIONAL, the manufacturing company that matters

PASSPORT:
BIBLE - BASIC INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE LEAVING EARTH

Every Chance is an Opportunity to Change Someone’s Eternity

No Book but the Bible
No Creed but Christ
No Laws but Love

In the essentials unity
In the non-essentials liberty
In all charity

Mini Code of Conduct:
2 Corinthians 6:8-10
As Deceivers yet Genuine, Unknown yet Well-known, Dying yet Alive, Beaten yet Not killed, Sorrowful yet always Rejoicing, immersed in tears yet always filled with deep joy, Poor yet making many Rich, Having nothing yet possessing all things

Philippians 1:21
For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain

Acts 1:7-8.
And you shall be witnesses to Me in Jerusalem(family) and in all Judea(relatives) and Samaria(friends) and to the ends of the earth(wherever).

Those were the vision, mission and code of conduct I received when I was 25 years old. Before that here are some of God’s promises that He gave it specifically, not just casually and I remember them on top of my head;

Romans 8:28
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose

Romans 8:18
For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us

1 Peter 5:10
But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you

1 Corinthians 2:9
But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him

Isaiah 64:4
For since the beginning of the world men have not heard, nor perceived by the ear, neither hath the eye seen, O God, beside thee, what he hath prepared for him that waiteth for him

2 Chronicles 16:9
For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show himself strong in the behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him.

Jeremiah 45:5
And seekest thou great things for thyself? seek them not: for, behold, I will bring evil upon all flesh, saith the LORD: but thy life will I give unto thee for a prey in all places whither thou goest

Philippians 3:7-16
But what things were gain to me, those I counted loss for Christ. Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ, And be found in him, not having mine own righteousness, which is of the law, but that which is through the faith of Christ, the righteousness which is of God by faith: That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death; If by any means I might attain unto the resurrection of the dead.
Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus. Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. Let us therefore, as many as be perfect, be thus minded: and if in any thing ye be otherwise minded, God shall reveal even this unto you. Nevertheless, whereto we have already attained, let us walk by the same rule, let us mind the same thing.

Luke 1:28
And the angel came in unto her, and said, Hail, thou that art highly favoured, the Lord is with thee: blessed art thou among women

The latest inspiring quotes that I came across are;

You may roll the dice, but God decides the outcome.
People don’t care how much you know till they know how much you care.

I hope to find myself once again soon. Yes Lord, I am lost and wish to be found.