After missing in action for over 2 years, I have finally decided to return to Faith Sojourner mode... Why is this? There's no other explanation but I am having difficulty in life...
What's the matter? I guess it's NO BABIES YET!!! I have been married for over 3 months now and by the way it took me a very long time to finally sell myself off!!! And just as I thought that I am safe and sound in the promised land... where there is milk and honey flowing... I see no sign of babies popping out of me!!! Thus so I have no other alternative but to 'once again lay myself down at His feet'. That line is a classic traditional cliche and if a non believer read this he or she would have thought that I love smelling other's feet.
Yes!!! Despite the 400 babies target given by our bestman, there is no baby in the near sight for us yet. I have consulted with a doctor and she said the sudden weight gain during honeymoon causes imbalance in my system. Therefore adjustments need to be done in prior. NOTE: I am unwilling to blame my greed with food during the honeymoon because that's what honeymoon is supposed to be all about; sit, eat, sleep, see and shop.
In the Faith Sojourner realm, I should and therefore I will believe that it is only the will of God for anyone to be able to have a baby and so I try to minimize mourning over such matter and focus on what I can do or actually what God wants me to do. Which is hard for now because my super faith has dwindled into a tiny star and I will need to pump it once again.
The good news is I have started going to fellowship and listening to sermons and so it's not just NATO 'no action talk only'. I have also been meaning to establish a prayer schedule but was held up by the effect of medication. Tomorrow is the last pill I have to swallow and then I plan to have my energy back. This medication causes lethargy for some reason and it's a common side effect. It's actually a medication for a diabetic to suppress sugar level by decreasing sugar absorption but along the way something is changing with the insulin. Anyways, I feel lethargic, that's all that I could think of.
BTW I am actually trying to get back on track by taking ERA Sales System Training. It will come handy in the future but for now I am still confused on where to go and what to do. There's what my parents want me to do and there's what I want to do. There's what I am good at doing and there's what my parents hope I will do. For years I have been confused. Torn between doing what I like and liking what I do. In the former case, I would feel unfilial towards my parents while in the later case I feel like I am missing out. I need to lay it down on what I would do. In short the training was free and so why not jump into it...
Once again, let me remind myself that in the end, it's really discovering what God wants me to do...
Jesus Christ, come into my life and please touch me so I know what to do...
Sincerely clueless Faith Sojourner, this time with little faith and practically a lost sojourner
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